Speaking without Fear

I am struggling. Struggling with the desire to vent, to complain, to get some sympathy, and struggling with the fact that I don’t want everyone to know my business. I write because I find it soothing to get my thoughts down in writing. It clears my head. So maybe what I need is a journal.

Yet, I want to share my thoughts with others. I find it comforting to know that others may find inspiration or a kindred spirit in me. There is a narcissistic reason too. I like thinking that someone or maybe many someones are listening.

Yet, there are some who I don’t want to know my thoughts. Some who twist them. Some who really don’t listen. They only hear what they want to hear. They put themselves into my life when I never asked for them to be there. They don’t care what I want. It is always about them.

So I find myself with words circling around in my head with no outlet, no place to rest. Fear overwhelms my words so that they can not escape. I hate this turmoil, but I don’t know what to do. I just want to be able to speak without fear.

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