Holding on…Barely

I have always been the sort of person that likes to hear numbers. For example, if someone says, “so-and-so, had a really big baby”, then I want to know how big. If someone says they made a lot of money on something, I want to know how much.

Yet, it seems like I am a loner in this mentality. I want specifics. I want details. I don’t want generalities. I want the whole story. So this is generally how I write…with specifics, details, numbers. I have actually tried editing that stuff out, but it seems so not me! So for today’s blog, I am going to give numbers. Sorry to those of you who like generalities.

Our current rent is $600 a month, which after looking at other 2 bedroom/1 bath homes is a lot, but we also have one acre. Most rentals don’t have acreage. Also, our landlord has said we can paint, fix up the place, have goats, whatever. Most rentals don’t allow that.

There have been two other possible rentals available to us. One is 3 bed/1 bath (I think) and $845. The other is 4 bed/2 bath for $875. While the 4 bedroom has almost everything we are looking for, there is no way we could possibly swing that much money (and we wouldn’t be able to keep our goat). Right now we take no salary from the store. When we have a bill, we figure out a way to pay it. There is no extra. None.

Through my tips, I am usually able to scrounge enough together to pay for Zumba classes (which means a lot to my personal well-being). But I don’t have enough for hair cuts, shoes, clothes, or dog grooming.

So it is looking like even though we would like to move, the expense is just too much. Actually, it is too much to stay and too much to move. The electric bill and repair costs are a lot, but moving would be more.

I am feeling quite discouraged with the whole thing. Is there light at the end of the tunnel? Will all this hard work ever pay off? Will our children just grow to resent us for having this store and this small run down house?

I am trying my best. I am pressing on. I holding on to hope.

1 Response so far »

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    Howard Becker said,

    Kara, If I could take you back through time and show you the places I grew up in, I was the oldest of 7 brothers and sisters and 5 cousins, you could see the “poverty”, the poor housing, the run down cars, the limited menus OR you could see the love. I did not know we were poor until I participated in a survey at school (5th grade) and found out we were not even on the scale.

    I have watched your family with pride. I have seen the positive things you and Joe do to make you family full of love. I know why you bought the store. I have seen you make it part of your children’s life. This is so much better then Joe going to a “job” and maybe you to. You are giving your family so many things that have nothing to do with the material trappings of life.

    Keep up the good work and rest comfortable in that you are shining in the eyes of our LORD.

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